Broken

As I was sitting in the auditorium Sunday night, listening to Scott share about our brokenness... I realized that far too often, I have to ask God to break me. Because I've become numb to my sin.

There are times when I am reminded of Christ and His sacrifice for us, and I've heard the story so many times that its full impact doesn't register in my mind, in my heart. There are times when we sing about the cross and all I can think about is my schedule for the next day. Somewhere, in the midst of school and work and church and family life, my heart has grown callous to the Person I've said has changed my life.

The worst part is... sometimes I sin without even batting an eye. I hate knowing that I am still so much attached to this human nature of mine. It's at times like this that I just have to lay myself bare before the Savior and ask Him to break me...

There's a song entitled "He's Not on His Knees Yet," by CeCe Winans. The chorus goes like this:
He's not ready
He's not on his knees yet
He's too strong to be weak
Show him mercy
He's not on his knees yet
Let him break, please make him better
Put the pieces back together...

That is the prayer of my heart this week... Father, break me. Bring me to my knees in repentence and humility. Rid me of my pride and my selfishness, my so-called independence, and teach me what it means to follow after You with everything that I have.